I had an excuse...

I realise I haven't blogged in a fairly long while. Perhaps no one even reads this anymore who knows, but I still like to keep this blog for my own reasons.

And this is the reason I haven't blogged...



That is the first 13 week scan of the baby I'm currently growing inside of me. We found out back in March that we are expecting our first baby and ever since then, everything has got very hectic in trying to get the house sorted as we don't currently have the space for a new little one! The "Nasa Space Station" (our pet name for the office) will be demoted (or promoted?) from the second bedroom to a new conservatory/extension built on the back of the house and the second bedroom can once again be made into a bedroom. Hurray!

So the past few months have been taken up with trying to get my head around knowing that I'll be a mummy by November, which is a fairly scary prospect. I've also been struggling a little bit health wise, as obviously I had literally only been on vitamin D supplements for just under a month before I became pregnant so my body has been trying to figure out what on earth is going on. I've also been told that some of my thyroid tablets are not suitable during pregnancy so I've been put on new ones. Essshk! Needless to say I've been a little tired and grouchy. Now that I'm 15 weeks pregnant, things are starting to settle.

The other major thing that happened in my life is that my grandad passed away at the end of April. We're all still trying to come to terms with it, because he wasn't particularly old and it was very much not expected. Life throws these things at you once in a while doesn't it.

So I'm hoping to blog a lot more in the future. The "Song of the Week" is likely to be sporadic still...less song of the week, more "Song of the Moment". In fact I may just change the name to that so I don't have to post quite so religiously.

Snow Day!

The Snow Day - with "Let it Snow" by Frank Sinatra

Isn't it amazing how the UK sees a scrap of snow and EVERYONE is excited about it and the country comes to a standstill? OK mostly England, Wales & Ireland, the Scots have pretty much got it down. All the schools in my area have shut, people haven't made it into work (myself included) and the silly rubbish men haven't come to collect my rubbish. How dare they! Yet in countries such as Canada, for a good example, they deal with this kind of thing x1000 and they seem to manage alright! I mean come on, our roads weren't even gritted. They KNEW this cold front would be coming in from Russia yet we still weren't prepared for it. In London, ALL the buses were stopped this morning. Thats something like 8000 buses. Yeah, seriously. There were also disruptions on the London Underground.......hello?? Its under.ground. ?!?!

Still, it looks pretty and everything, and means I didn't have to go to work this morning, even though I still have to work from home. It literally hasn't stopped snowing all day. That is so unusual for here. I made the above video out of boredom and just as a reminder I guess? See if you can spot my new car (the black one) and the crazy snowman my neighbours just made.

Keys Keys Keys

This may seem a bit random (but hey, that's just me...) but I always remember when I was a kid thinking why my parents had SO many keys! I really often wondered if I'd ever have that many keys. I remember being given my first key to my parents house and thinking, wow I have my own keys now! Which is pretty sad for a kid who collected keyrings... So anyhow. Today I realised that I do own a lot of keys.

Looking Forward

A few things in the next couple of months that I am looking forward to...

♥ Season 5 of LOST starts toniiiiiiiiiight!

♥ Joining the worship team at church, even though I'm proper nervous about it.

♥ Getting the DIY done downstairs, including finishing the kitchen, decorating the hallway and the downstairs WC. New floor and everything. I'll have to take piccatures.

♥ Twinny coming to stay!!! We're going to do lots of singing and mucking around. I wanna decorate another cake but we're both trying to lose weight. Boooooooo. But it's gunna be fun!

♥ Seeing Russell Peters at the London O2 on Valentine's Day, woo!

♥ The Sims 3 (PC Game) being realeased on the 20th Feb. Hurray! It's geeky but I don't caaaare!

P.S. New song up on Twins That Sing

Time to Think

I haven't blogged for a while. That's just the way life goes. Sometimes you have your moments, other times you just...don't. So recently hasn't really been my moment. I think the rest of life kind of got in the way, and I don't mind that at all.

Christmas and New Year were fun. They disappeared into a blur of spending time with our two families and have now faded into mere memories. Good ones. My darling husband bought me a microphone stand, so I will be doing some singing soon I hope!

For the past two days I have been in and out of hospital. First was an appointment to see the rheumatologist. Second was a bone profile scan with a bit of radioactive injection and a lot of laying still. 30 mins of being scanned whilst you have to lay completely still gives you some time to think about some things! Tomorrow I will be going back for a bone density scan. I'm seeing one of the top rheumatologists in the country, so I feel like I'm finally getting somewhere.

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Well, the above feels like a bit of just a boring update. Including a partial apology for not blogging, which is ridiculous as this is MY blog (so there!!) - I was just reading Megan's blog and she was talking about how blogging has turned into some kind of...I don't know what word to give it. So i'm just going to quote her instead, i'm sure she won't mind...

Why do people blog? People don't blog for themselves... that's called journaling. You know, with a pen filling up pages that nobody else reads until you're dead. People blog because they want other people to read what they write and find it interesting and valuable.

It's so true, how a lot of people seek affirmation (that's the word I was looking for!!) from others from what they write. I don't want this blog to be like that. Oh by all means, feel free to comment. It's nice when people are interested in my life. But I do want this blog to be for me, and to feel compelled to write in it, not for affirmation but for release.

At the moment it feels like I'm going into a completely new stage in life. Things are changing, and fairly rapidly. I think back to this time last year, and even two years ago and think wow, how things have changed! Challenges are going to be faced very soon. I'm not sure how I'll cope with them. But what I want to focus on is how to lean on God through all these challenges.

I've been asked to sing at my friend's wedding in October. WOW!! I feel so privileged, even to be asked! They want me as backing vocals for the worship, and then possibly lead vocals for one of the songs, and maybe a song whilst the register is being signed. I'm so nervous about it! But I really want to conquer my fears - the big fear of "what do people think of me?!". I don't want that to hold me back anymore. So yes, I will be singing. ARGH!

Right, I've decided. I want to do a 101 in 1001. (For those of you who don't know, that's 101 goals to meet/things to do in 1001 days...) I'm hoping to think of 101 things, and I shall be using friends lists as inspiration! And looking deep within me to see what I REALLY want in life.

How to live a balanced life...

How do you live a balanced life? I'm not entirely sure to be honest. I feel like I can't fit everything into life that I need to. Owning a home, which is mid-DIY, keeping everything tidy, keeping the house clean, washing my clothes, washing my husbands clothes, ironing said clothes, cooking healthy (pah!) meals every evening, recreation time, relationship time, church meeting time, shopping, organising Christmas, entertaining, educating oneself with educating books, reading books that are just plain fun, making 130 wedding invites (cus I said I would...grrrr) AND working full time.

Is it me or does that sound like a lot? How am I supposed to do ALL of those things successfully? I sit at work and feel like working is wasting my time. I could be at home doing all this other stuff. The ironing pile is ridiculously high. I mean RIDICULOUSLY. I guess its the thing I ignore the most. The DIY still isn't finished so I have an un-finished kitchen still. There's just stuff everywhere. How we're supposed to run a fully fledged I.T business out of a small bedroom is beyond me.

I think I can safely say I am overwhelmed. Adding to the fact that my health is an obstacle... gosh. Help?